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Is Mercury Retrograde again?

Damn. Every year at this time this happens to me. I get hot flashes. I swear if I weren't a guy I'd swear I was menopausal. I'll feel fine for awhile then I'll get these hot flashes and sweats and then I'll go back to normal. And of course in the back of mind this little voice is saying "Maybe it's Anthrax!" given we had the scare on Monday. The results are still not back from the lab though the two people directly exposed have now been tested with no ill effects. I swear as slow as they do the labwork people could die before they found out the results.

The Fall leaves are at their peak this week here. I drove down Grandview Drive just off the Heights yesterday and took pictures of all the trees overlooking the River. I'll have to post some when they come back. If it rains again tonight and with the wind they are predicting, I doubt we'll have many leaves left by the weekend. Still, the ones at the farm haven't completely changed yet so I'll still have a little nice scenery before everything goes to monotones. Funny how the seasons look different from Peoria to the farm. They are only 89 miles apart.

I'm heading to the farm tonight I think. Even though the weather is supposed to turn bad, I have a ritual I need to do. My energy is more centered at the farm plus I can feed off the energy centers there. If we have another thunderstorm, I could use that to my advantage as well. I need to be near my stones as I'll need to lay out a medicine wheel for this ritual. WhiteHawk's brother Billy Wolf Eagle has just discovered he has prostate cancer and I've been asked to do a distance healing and also send some energy to WhiteHawk. For something like cancer, I like have all my resources at hand so I can make the energy as potent as possible.

Tomorrow I'm supposed to go pick up the cover for my tipi and the people I bought it from are supposed to show me how to tie the tripod and lift the cover into place. After I get it together at the farm I mau leave it up all winter and do all my rituals from there.

Peace,

Wander

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ryl
Oct. 24th, 2001 09:39 am (UTC)
Well, according to this, the initial signs of anthrax "resemble a common cold." You're either menopausal or crazy. Maybe both!

Energy...centered? Wow, what's that like? It's been so long...since August...damn Education department. I thought I was a procrastinator.
wander
Oct. 24th, 2001 10:03 am (UTC)
Re:
Energy...centered...I doubt it's the same for me as for anyone else but for me it's a feeling that everything is right with the world. No worries, no cares, nothing from the outside affects my inner peace. It's where I have to be to do any sort of effective healing. If I let outside things in, I can't concentrate and the rituals don't do what they are supposed to do. Once I was trying to get in a meditative trance for a healing ritual and I'll be damned if Motley Crue's "Wild Side" didn't keep running through my head. Screwed up the whole thing. I couldn't do more than just achieve a state of relaxation.

The other part of being centered is being able to "feel" all the energy from different sources around you and know you can channel them into healing energy for other people. When I use the energy for myself it's when I tend to go on "journeys" and shapeshift and all which I've written about before. Generally when I've completed a healing ritual, I leave a little time for myself to just go where the spirits take me. That's when the shapeshifting usually occurs and not when I'm trying to make it happen.

Sounds like you need to take yourself a break and find somewhere you can be centered.

As for the Antrax, It's only the little voice saying that. I was around a dozen or so 9 year olds and their parents Saturday night for a birthday party and hay rack ride out at the farm. I think it's more likely I caught a cold or a light flu from one of them.

See ya cutie.

Wander
ryl
Oct. 24th, 2001 02:35 pm (UTC)
Not that I'm bitter or anything
I would like to take a break, but apparently the Education Department has other ideas.

Head of ED: "I know what we'll do! We'll wait until the last damn minute of their senior year to slam them with all their education courses!"

Rest of ED: "Yeah! Great idea!"

NCDPI: "And let's not forget to hit them with the portfolio without which they cannot graduate at the same time!"

ED: "What a brilliant plan!"

Education Majors: *sounds of spontaneous breakdowns and spaz attacks*

No, really, I'm fine....oweu59r275sdngo59345nsdngsdgfssssdf
wander
Oct. 24th, 2001 02:56 pm (UTC)
Re: Not that I'm bitter or anything
The key in that situation is finding a little bit of time just every once in awhile to take a trip out of your surroundings. I don't mean you have to leave physically though you could find a nice little woodsy park or something around there. And just concentrate on not concentrating if that makes sense. It's a procees of conscious allowing that makes it work. You just have to allow yourself to just be without putting any expectations on yourself. Just get in a comfortable position with eyes closed and allow yourself to feel the things around you...to become part of the tree you are leaning against...to be absorbed into the ground and really become a part of your environment so the energy of the things around you begins to move through you. It can be quite refreshing. Almost like a trip to see some geeky chem teacher.

Peace,

Wander
ryl
Oct. 24th, 2001 03:17 pm (UTC)
Re: Not that I'm bitter or anything
some geeky chem teacher.

Hands off, he's mine!

I was thinking about doing that this weekend or Friday. Hell, I have to read Bury My Heart At Wounded Knee again and since it's been 80+ degrees lately, I may as well take advantage of it. Now to find those Wizard of Oz trees so they can give me a backrub and all will be well. Mmmm...Wizard of Oz trees....
wander
Oct. 24th, 2001 03:23 pm (UTC)
Re: Not that I'm bitter or anything
Well I'll promise you a good backrub when I'm out there in December if the geeky chem teacher doesn't object. As for Bury My Heart, get the cliff notes. It's a long read. I read it just a month ago. Don't worry, I want nothing to do with the geeky chem teacher in that way. He's all yours. Do yourself a favor and give yourself a little vacation.

Wander

dragoneerl
Oct. 24th, 2001 04:32 pm (UTC)
Re: Not that I'm bitter or anything
Oh, what? I'm not GOOD enough for you?

*sniff*

Okay, I'm not interested in any of that stuff either, but if you ARE going to be passing through or near Mount Olive, I think it WOULD be cool if you would stop by to say hello. Just an idea.

Dragoneer
wander
Oct. 25th, 2001 07:06 am (UTC)
Re: Not that I'm bitter or anything
Oh yeah, I was planning on that. I'll be out there for a week from December 22-29 so I'll hopefully have time to visit with you, Ryl, Namaste, Dragonfly, Cuddles and a couple of others. I have to drive right through Mt. Olive anyway.

Wander

ryl
Oct. 25th, 2001 01:32 pm (UTC)
Re: Not that I'm bitter or anything
I would recommend taking the road. Driving through mountains usually does bad things to your car.
wander
Oct. 25th, 2001 02:01 pm (UTC)
Re: Not that I'm bitter or anything
I think you and Dragoneer share the same brain at times.

Wander

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