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The trek

Looks like LJ is having problems again. Hopefully I can at least update.

I think I should quit while I'm ahead with the chainsaw. I almost ended my life again yesterday. Sunday morning I finally got disgusted with myself for sitting around doing nothing with a perfectly good four day weekend. What's worse was I was actually sitting there in fear. Somehow I managed to fuck up my checking account again. I had been really good about everything for almost six months. My bills were paid on time and I was bale to save a little and buy some things I wanted. Then somehow, just before the NC trip, everything went to hell and I had some checks returned and all that. So I was avoiding answering the phone or going to the mailbox for as long as possible. Finally, yesterday I summoned up some testicular fortitude and checked both the messages and the mail just to get it over with. Then realizing I needed to get out of my mood, I decided to go to the woods. I had planned to anyway but the grey day was making me think twice about it. I put my wallet inot my pocket thinking it would be useful in identifying the body should the need arise.

But I finally pulled myself together and went outside. I fired up the old tractor because it had rained and I didn't want my truck getting stuck in one of the fields. I fueled up the chainsaw and strapped it to the tractor along with 50 feet of log chain in case I needed to pull anything out.

Back when I had cows at the farm a few years ago, I used to let them roam the woods for food and water. This kept me from having to feed them and water them all the time plus it kept the paths in the woods clear of briars and such. Now a lot of it is overgrown and I'm always getting cut up when I go to the woods. The hunters complain about it too so I was going to do us all a favor and clear one of the old paths that wind around the back of the second field and down to the creek. I drove the field lane back with the tractor and left it there. I got the chainsaw out and the brush clippers and headed for the woods. There was blown down trees down everywhere and thorns to boot. And if it wasn't bad enough that there were wild roses everywhere, there were also juvenile honey locust trees with their damned 4 inch thorns sticking me everytime I moved. So a lot of them came down. I hit a place that was almost impassable where a huge ok had gone down and taken a hickory with it. I cut through most of the oak branches and tossed them into the draw. The hickory was balancing on one small branch and the main limb was still attached to the trunk. So I figured I'd cut the small branch and at least let the rest of the limb fall into the draw. No such luck. I cut the small branch and the entire flipping tree fell over and landed at my feet. If I'd been two inches forward, I'd be dead right now and that wallet thing would come in very handy! Anyway, I did end up getting the path cleared all the way to the creek. It was cold out but I'd managed to sweat through two shirts and my jacket. So I hung the jacket on a hedge tree and left the chainsaw and wandered down the creek.

I stopped at a place where the bank was about five feet above the surface of the water. Jake was swimming and splashing downstream. I took out some tobacco I'd put in my pocket earlier and made an offering to the East, South, West and North, Father Sky, Mother Earth and the Spirit Within. I asked Great Spirit for his blessing and then asked the spirit of the woods to allow me to walk there and find the stones that would guide me on the next part of my journey. As I said this the wind came up and started the trees to talking and all the four leggeds, winged ones and creepy crawlies started to speak at once. I took five coins from my pocket and offered them to the spirit of the water, tossing them into the creek and promising that whatever stones I removed from the protection of it's banks would be cared for. The creek gurgled it's approval.

Farther down, I jumped the creek near the old hollow tree where Vulture lives. I could see where Deer had crossed as well and where they had rubbed up against the trees here and there. Hedge balls littered the forest floor and I could see where Squirrel and other four leggeds had broken some open for their seeds. I walked on down the bank until I found a place where the water had undercut the roots of a huge ash. The bank was hollow underneath and the heavier rocks had been dumped on the creek bottom before it turned to opposite direction and headed on. I jumped down on a small sandbar and took from my paocket a tripple terminate piece of quartz. I'd noticed this piece among some I'd gotten from an Arkansas quartz mine in bulk. It has a nice rainbow inside and is the only tripple terminated piece I've ever seen. I held it in my receptive hand and asked it to help me find some stones here. I looked through it at the opposite bank and three stones gleamed back at me. I leaned over, slipped and got my feet wet (of course) and picked each of the stones up. I inserted a piece of tobacco in each hole left by the stones as a token of my appreciation and promise to safeguard the stones. All three stones are chalcedony. Two are flint and one is caramel colored chert. Of the two flint stones, one has clear markings that show where concoidal falkes were taken off with a stone or bone tool at one time. I could imagine some ancient Kickapoo or Potawotomie hunter sitting patiently in his camp making flint tools with this stone.

I thanked the water and the forest again and walked back to my jacket. I thanked all the spirits and headed back home. The tractor wouldn't start and I discovered it was out of gas in the main tank so I had to open the reserve tank and hope water had not gotten into it. Thankfully, it hadn't and I was able to get back to the house without walking all the way.

Right after I got in, the phone rang and it was Rob and Robbie. They had gotten several ducks and wanted me to come and get the wings and feathers. So I went down to Rob's house. While there, they also gave me three sets of deer antlers from deer they had killed this season. I told them to start saving me the hides as well so I can tan them. Robbie also gave me an ancient white flint scaper he found atop a furrow in a newly plowed field when he was squirel hunting on Thursday. Now I'll have lots of things to make and trade when I go to NC in December.

Peace,

Wander

Comments

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ryl
Nov. 26th, 2001 02:46 pm (UTC)
Seems to me that it's not that you need to quit with the chainsaw, it's that you need to rethink how you're cutting things. Then again, maybe that chainsaw is possessed and is trying to kill you. Check and see if you left the switch on to "evil."

What exactly is triple terminate quartz?
wander
Nov. 26th, 2001 02:53 pm (UTC)
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Most quartz crystals have a six sided point on one end. These are single terminated. Some also have a point on the opposite end. These are double terminated. If these have a six sided point on both ends they are pretty rare. The one I have looks like it may have been twin crystals that grew together. There is a six sided point on one end and two six sided points side by side on the other end. Very rare.

Wander

johnthetiger
Nov. 26th, 2001 05:37 pm (UTC)
Yeah, time to retire the chainsaw. You brought your wallet?! Well, good thing you didn't need it. Sounds like the trip ended up ok though, hope you got in a nicer mood.
wander
Nov. 27th, 2001 07:41 am (UTC)
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Yeah, I was just mad at myself anyway. It started getting grey out and I started to slide into my winter doldrums without realizing I was doing it. I can't allow that to happen or else I get really depressed. Winter here is not a good season for me. I'm a sun worshipper.

Wander

johnthetiger
Nov. 27th, 2001 08:18 am (UTC)
Winter is bad. The sun is good. Well, hopefully going outside helped even though the weather was crappy and your chainsaw is evil. =) We have lucked out and not had much winter yet, but it's getting bad here too.
wander
Nov. 27th, 2001 08:24 am (UTC)
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We've really been lucky so far. Even though it rained yesterday, it was still in the middle 50's. I've been enjoying the weatehr this fall. Usually we've had snow by now and it's gotten really cold. The weekend was just a case of too much time on my hands and some grey days. If I remember to think about it, I can find ways around thinking about all the greyness. If I let myself go though, I get down on myself.

How you doing today?

Wander

johnthetiger
Nov. 27th, 2001 11:03 am (UTC)
I'm doing alright, I've finally gotten myself out of the habit of staying up until 3am writing... I guess it's a good thing. It's nice and cold but the sun's out so I'm happy.

You know, you sound kind of like me! If I don't have lots of work to do and crappy weather that keeps me inside, I start feeling really crappy too!
wander
Nov. 27th, 2001 11:45 am (UTC)
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Two peas in a pod as it were. Just think if we were to have a relationship. We'd kill ourselves or each other wouldn't we?

Wander

johnthetiger
Nov. 27th, 2001 03:14 pm (UTC)
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You're silly!
wander
Nov. 28th, 2001 09:31 am (UTC)
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Yeah, I know.

Wander

papa_elf
Nov. 27th, 2001 10:24 am (UTC)
I lke the weather here. It will snow for a few days, then it will be in the 70's for a few days. The randomness of it all keeps the winter interesting. As long as it is either warm or snowing it's great. I don't like it when 35 and it's raining. That chills to the bone more than sub-zero tepertures.
wander
Nov. 27th, 2001 10:30 am (UTC)
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I actually love Colorado winters. I've tried to explain to Deb that it's completely different from the midwest. Here it will get mildly cold and grey for days at a time and that's when I just go all to hell. What I liked about Colorado was it would be cold as all get out but at least the sun would be shining. In 88 in Alamosa, we had the Nations low temp for a week. One day it was 56 below zero and they closed all the schools and colleges. But at least it was sunny. You could throw a glass of water in the air and it would freeze before it hit the ground but at least it didn't feel like you were trapped inside a cold grey prison.

Wander

namaste21
Nov. 26th, 2001 09:48 pm (UTC)
Please don't kill yourself with your chainsaw. you'd be disappointing the masses of Wanderfans in the LJ community...Not only that, but I can't handle any more stress right now! Behave yourself and keep safe! *exercises motherly rights to nag*
wander
Nov. 27th, 2001 07:38 am (UTC)
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Thanks, it's nice to have someone to nag me. I actually am being safe with the saw. Mother Nature is just not cooperating lately. I must have unleashed some bad karma somewhere.

Wander

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